I hate change. I understand that it is a necessary part of life. I accept it BUT I still hate it. Whether it’s major or minor, any type of change exasperates my soul. What I am about to share with you has completely changed the trajectory of my whole world. You may have to fill in the blanks (or not) but I will be as transparent as I can be with the situation. After all, I know on one of these blogs I said I would be that way for my readers. However, there are some things I will choose to leave out of this one.
I made a terrible mistake.
Yup. Me and all of my human flesh made a pretty terrible mistake. An awful mistake. I have never tried to make myself seem like I was perfect or even close to it. That being said, I legit f**ked up. Now that I know I was wrong, in so many ways and on so many different levels, I have to somehow fix what I messed up. We have all encountered an issue in life that just felt like it was far beyond repair. This is that one for me. So…what do you do when you don’t know what to do?
Admitting when you were wrong can be a grueling task. You have been faced with finding out you were wrong, then you have to sit with that and THEN admit it? Yeah, that’s a lot. Kudos to anyone who has been strong enough to get to that stage in the mistake process. This has been the toughest part. A full admittance of guilt. I have had to come to the realization that not only have made my own life tough, but others also. Everyone involved deserves a full explanation, those directly affected anyways. That is what I have done. After doing that, you don’t get to regulate how someone deals with the information. You just have to move forward. Which, honestly, is always easier said than done. It has been some weeks since I had to step forward and face the ugly fact that I was wrong. Honestly, it has taken me weeks to be able to come back to finish this post because I had grown fearful of sharing this with you all. I am constantly having to remind myself that my sole purpose for creating this blog was to share my stories in hopes that someone is pushed, motivated or inspired in some sort of way by me sharing my truth. Good people make mistakes. In order to move forward you have to admit you were wrong, apologize, make the correction and just don’t make the same mistake again. And if you do..repeat the above steps until you get it right.
Life has been pretty hectic and I am so excited to share more of what’s been happening! In order to find out though, you’ll just have to wait and seeeeee. Until next time lovelies! Thank you for your continued support and I hope you’ll subscribe and share me with a friend!